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11:04PM.

When you decided to leave, it didn’t bother me anymore.

I am now being wise on choosing my battles and it is always best to stay calm and positive despite the challenges and stones being thrown at us.

We may not have the best love story, but ours is remarkable. Which is why it became my favorite.

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2:15PM.

I don’t know what to write. I am not even sure where to start. A lot of thoughts are flooding my mind and it keeps repeating.

How can a man stay mad for too long? How did it ever gone to this? How hard is it to forgive? This isn’t how it’s supposed to be.

I could never cheat on anyone. It’s the type of mistake and wrong doing that I couldn’t live with. Knowing that you destroyed someone’s trust is bad, but destroying someone’s perspective on love is far worse.

To you,

I know we tend to be vulnerable at times. We are fragile even. It doesn’t change the fact that we can become powerful too.

First, I am sorry that I am hating you as of this writing. Because of you, the man I love has no believe in love and what joy it can bring to our lives. He would not believe in the goodness of having someone taking care of him. He is too mad and too strong. He is capable of not caring at all. He is selfish that it breaks my heart to pieces.

I may not know the reason why you left him. But it turned the man I love to something that gives pain into my chest. I know it isn’t fair to blame you, but you are still the reason why he would not trust again. 

Or maybe not.

I have been thinking about it lately. Maybe, it isn’t because of you that he doesn’t want to love again. Maybe, I am not the one who would make him feel alive again. Maybe, I am not enough for him.

Maybe, he meant well. Maybe, he was just too nice.

I was loving him in silence hoping that he’d wake up one day realizing that he loves me and everything is worth-risking. 

I can not remember a time when I wasn’t there for him. He is the man that I have always wanted to love. He is strong, so much that he became indestructible. He has walls that I can’t come apart. I can’t even get in. One time, in my solitude, I thought of being his girl. But yet in my solitude, it permits me not. 

What is it with him that I am terrified of him? Why can’t I tell him just how much I adore him? 

He is not a typical guy who would hug you when you are sad. Not the man who would let you touch him when he is mad. He’s not the type of man who adores the simplest things you do. Certainly not the one sorry for his behavior. 

He is romantic in some way. In his own godless way. I cannot tell whether or not he likes me. One day, he’s sweet, the next day, he’s so cold. When he’s near, I can’t look at him. 

When he’s far, I can’t stop thinking about him. He is so much of a man that I have always wanted him to be but he is too selfish at times. Too selfish that he forgets that I, too, have feelings. 

I have forgotten what it’s like to be man-touched. Or be loved. Or be longed for. Or be cared for. He loves mystery so much that he became one (borrowed from Papertowns). I was trying not to care for him, at least for a day, but it’s hard not too. 

How can I not care for him when the word care for me tells me his name?

  

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This made my morning. It’s funny if you can relate. Long Distance Relationship really sucks. 🙂

See, that’s the thing about being in a relationship. You always think about the happiness of your partner. I saw this article and it reminded me of yesterday. Hun and I were just talking about this things. Looking back to when we started, it made me realize, we were good without each other. But now that we have each other, we are at our best together.

10 Definitive Ways to tell you are in love with the right someone

I love this relationship because it makes me a better person. – Gab to Ney

By the window,
We sit and talk

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What I love about having my alone time is when I get to read short but a very good article I can find in my Facebook Newsfeed.

10 Things a guy would know he’s dating a WOMAN and not a girl.

Right. Just like every woman who needs a MAN,and not a BOY who thinks he already can.

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You know that feeling when you found the one who made you say it. Or even think it.

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If you ever feel so lucky waking up knowing you have the best partner in the world. Come feel me.
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