Archive for the ‘Love’ Category

I can not remember a time when I wasn’t there for him. He is the man that I have always wanted to love. He is strong, so much that he became indestructible. He has walls that I can’t come apart. I can’t even get in. One time, in my solitude, I thought of being his girl. But yet in my solitude, it permits me not. 

What is it with him that I am terrified of him? Why can’t I tell him just how much I adore him? 

He is not a typical guy who would hug you when you are sad. Not the man who would let you touch him when he is mad. He’s not the type of man who adores the simplest things you do. Certainly not the one sorry for his behavior. 

He is romantic in some way. In his own godless way. I cannot tell whether or not he likes me. One day, he’s sweet, the next day, he’s so cold. When he’s near, I can’t look at him. 

When he’s far, I can’t stop thinking about him. He is so much of a man that I have always wanted him to be but he is too selfish at times. Too selfish that he forgets that I, too, have feelings. 

I have forgotten what it’s like to be man-touched. Or be loved. Or be longed for. Or be cared for. He loves mystery so much that he became one (borrowed from Papertowns). I was trying not to care for him, at least for a day, but it’s hard not too. 

How can I not care for him when the word care for me tells me his name?

  

May is a very special month for me. Aside from the fact that this is my birth month, it’s summer too! Pretty amazing huh. So this blog talks about why I was not able to update since I cannot remember the date of my last post. Fast forward to today, I am busy because of few things.

  1. I am a certified business woman now! Yes. I am a business woman now. It’s pretty much related to one thing that I ever loved! Apparels. Yey! I have a new business that’s called Renee’s Closet. It’s formerly known as Dress to Kill but that’s way too overused. I decided to have it named after mine. It’s more of a summer collection. You can check on my Facebook account to see more of it.
  2. I am a weekend warrior at the beach. Thank holy goodness for the weekend rest days! I get to camp at the beach every weekend. Surf. Eat. Read. Sleep. This is an ideal life. So the place I go to is a remote area and the connection is sporadic, I can’t find time to share with you my wonderful experience back there. I will make sure to post pictures soon.
  3. I am reading a lot lately. Sometimes what we need is something that’ll feed our minds and soul. One good thing about the new Blackberry Software Update is that I get to download from amazon.com. That was the reason why I have Our Daily Bread that I, take note, can also set to remind me every end of my shift at work. What a great way to start my day. (My work starts at night and ends in the morning.) I bought 10 new books. I have about 50 eBooks to read. And believe me, this is euphoric and so addicting.

There it goes. These are the things that fill my days. Fill me in with yours.

Before I even start, the title is not original but it tells everything about this blog. There’s this one girl, a very sound girl. Or not. She fell in love with a man ten years elder than her. It was actually an epic love tale. It all started as what they call a whirlwind love affair. The first time they met is not special because they encountered through a friend. Perhaps the timing was wrong. Or they were simply not meant to be.

So i’ll start.

June, 2012

It embarked on with a pen and a tissue. The man was really aggressive but don’t get me amiss. He was a genuinely funny guy. Whenever he talks, I laugh. It was like the first in forever that I ever laughed even in a very feeble joke. He’s not even straining to be funny. I have never thought that day, my life would alter forever. I will not try to explain what happened. But if I can delineate it, clearly, he was the prince who swept me off my feet. It was absolutely magical.

But just like every love story, it came through ups and down until one day, the fairy tale is over. Considerably, it wasn’t even very real to begin with.

Just like that…

“But when the strong were too weak to hurt the weak, the weak had to be strong enough to leave.” — Milan Kundera

Say Something I’m giving up on you.
I’ll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I’m still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
Anywhere I would’ve followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye

Say something, I’m giving up on you
And I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
And anywhere I would’ve followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I’m giving up on you

Say something, I’m giving up on you
Say something…

What a sad song.

Read: Exodus 2:2. The scripture talks about The Birth of Moses.

1. Perception for our children. If you perceive something as special, you’re going to take care of it.
2. Protection.
3. Preparation.

For kids;
Honor your parents.
Being smarter doesn’t mean wiser.

For parents;
Guide your children. Perceive for them, protect them and prepare them to see the world.

Photo credits to Goodsalt.com

The Birth of Moses.

Good choice. Good catch. The difference.

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MAN: My friend and I had a talk. He said you are a good choice and he likes you for me.

WOMAN: Oh, I would’ve bought it if I really am a good choice for you. In our case, I am only a good catch because you already have made your choice 2 years ago. Need I say more?

MAN: *Sigh*

WOMAN: I am only a good catch, I get it. And you don’t have to say anything. It’s not gonna change it. But I can be a good choice. It only takes a man to figure that one out in a second they lay their eyes on me.

End of Conversation.

P.S
For girls, you have to know your self-worth. Do not get stuck digging the grey area in between girl and friend. You should and I will stress out, YOU DESERVE to be called a girlfriend. Do not ever doubt your beauty and you do not need to test how much your heart can hold. You deserve more than that. If not the best.

The message is for all the girls who knows the difference between a good choice and a good catch but does not appreciate that learning at all. Probably, a note to self.

This song is for you.
Girls Chase Boys by Ingrid

And then again, I have found something worth sharing.
You can click on this link to read the most part.

He loves your soul.

This one made me believe and hope for something.

He likes you before he likes to look at you.
Your beauty isn’t first for him. It’s something he enjoys, but not something he expects. He sees you as a soul, a counterpart, a person. He doesn’t see you as the object of his desires or the prize he loves to mount in the living room

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Maybe right now, I really can’t tell if my man is the right one for me. But when I read articles like this, it makes me hope for our tomorrow. For our future together.

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Can anyone tell me, how do we know if “He’s” the right one? I have dated a few and thought of them right for me but I always lose them in the process. Either, the time was not right, or the situation didn’t permit.

Any thoughts?

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This made my morning. It’s funny if you can relate. Long Distance Relationship really sucks. 🙂

See, that’s the thing about being in a relationship. You always think about the happiness of your partner. I saw this article and it reminded me of yesterday. Hun and I were just talking about this things. Looking back to when we started, it made me realize, we were good without each other. But now that we have each other, we are at our best together.

10 Definitive Ways to tell you are in love with the right someone

I love this relationship because it makes me a better person. – Gab to Ney