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I wish I can tell you how much it kills me when I have to deal with unreasonable and difficult people.

I am under the impression that I am being tested. It’s unimaginable. It breaks my heart knowing that there are people like them.

Which led me to search for articles that talk about them. I found a good one, Ten Keys to Handling Unreasonable & Difficult People .  Now, this blog talks about how I do it. And why do I write about it?

I know this someone. Okey, he isn’t just someone. He is special. If not, none of these would’ve mattered to me right?

How do I survive  dealing with the kind?

  • Sigh. When I sigh, that means retreat for me. There is nothing more fulfilling than showing diplomacy and do not talk when you are tempted to retaliate with words.
  • Look them in the eye with no emotion. There is nothing more satisfying than giving them what they deserve. They deserve no answer and a blank stare. I was once an aggressive and it didn’t do me any good. If there is one thing I learned, it’s to smile and to make them feel that you don’t care enough to respond. It kills the enemy.
  • Show them how the game is done. One way or the other, the negative person will learn that they are not high and mighty as they think they are. They are difficult to deal with because they have insecurities and they will never tell you that. They are strong but they aren’t unbreakable. Keep your cool.

These aren’t enough but you know how I hate battling for something that isn’t even worth thinking about.

I can not remember a time when I wasn’t there for him. He is the man that I have always wanted to love. He is strong, so much that he became indestructible. He has walls that I can’t come apart. I can’t even get in. One time, in my solitude, I thought of being his girl. But yet in my solitude, it permits me not. 

What is it with him that I am terrified of him? Why can’t I tell him just how much I adore him? 

He is not a typical guy who would hug you when you are sad. Not the man who would let you touch him when he is mad. He’s not the type of man who adores the simplest things you do. Certainly not the one sorry for his behavior. 

He is romantic in some way. In his own godless way. I cannot tell whether or not he likes me. One day, he’s sweet, the next day, he’s so cold. When he’s near, I can’t look at him. 

When he’s far, I can’t stop thinking about him. He is so much of a man that I have always wanted him to be but he is too selfish at times. Too selfish that he forgets that I, too, have feelings. 

I have forgotten what it’s like to be man-touched. Or be loved. Or be longed for. Or be cared for. He loves mystery so much that he became one (borrowed from Papertowns). I was trying not to care for him, at least for a day, but it’s hard not too. 

How can I not care for him when the word care for me tells me his name?

  

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Music Ministry

Pray for those who persecute you. – Pastor’s Wife

In my weakness,
You help me find
An immaculate remedy.

In my anger,
You help me see
Rightly

In my down fall,
You help me get back
On my feet

I am not after an exemplary life.
I am after wrapping my mind in
The concepts of healing and salvation.

For in my life,
I was blinded
By fear and anger.

But God has shown me a better way to live.
Fear is now my ally.
Because I fear not the society.

But my redeemer, my God.

Podcast Link here: Love your enemies by Pastor Joey Bonifacio

Happy Sunday! 🙂

Your Booty Call Is Your Best Bud: The Ups And Downs Of F*cking A Friend

Here’s the actual link that you can click on: http://elitedaily.com/dating/booty-call-best-bud-pros-cons-fcking-friend/989914/

While reading, you can also listen to this song:

Before I even start, the title is not original but it tells everything about this blog. There’s this one girl, a very sound girl. Or not. She fell in love with a man ten years elder than her. It was actually an epic love tale. It all started as what they call a whirlwind love affair. The first time they met is not special because they encountered through a friend. Perhaps the timing was wrong. Or they were simply not meant to be.

So i’ll start.

June, 2012

It embarked on with a pen and a tissue. The man was really aggressive but don’t get me amiss. He was a genuinely funny guy. Whenever he talks, I laugh. It was like the first in forever that I ever laughed even in a very feeble joke. He’s not even straining to be funny. I have never thought that day, my life would alter forever. I will not try to explain what happened. But if I can delineate it, clearly, he was the prince who swept me off my feet. It was absolutely magical.

But just like every love story, it came through ups and down until one day, the fairy tale is over. Considerably, it wasn’t even very real to begin with.

Just like that…

Good choice. Good catch. The difference.

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MAN: My friend and I had a talk. He said you are a good choice and he likes you for me.

WOMAN: Oh, I would’ve bought it if I really am a good choice for you. In our case, I am only a good catch because you already have made your choice 2 years ago. Need I say more?

MAN: *Sigh*

WOMAN: I am only a good catch, I get it. And you don’t have to say anything. It’s not gonna change it. But I can be a good choice. It only takes a man to figure that one out in a second they lay their eyes on me.

End of Conversation.

P.S
For girls, you have to know your self-worth. Do not get stuck digging the grey area in between girl and friend. You should and I will stress out, YOU DESERVE to be called a girlfriend. Do not ever doubt your beauty and you do not need to test how much your heart can hold. You deserve more than that. If not the best.

The message is for all the girls who knows the difference between a good choice and a good catch but does not appreciate that learning at all. Probably, a note to self.

This song is for you.
Girls Chase Boys by Ingrid

And then again, I have found something worth sharing.
You can click on this link to read the most part.

He loves your soul.

This one made me believe and hope for something.

He likes you before he likes to look at you.
Your beauty isn’t first for him. It’s something he enjoys, but not something he expects. He sees you as a soul, a counterpart, a person. He doesn’t see you as the object of his desires or the prize he loves to mount in the living room

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Maybe right now, I really can’t tell if my man is the right one for me. But when I read articles like this, it makes me hope for our tomorrow. For our future together.

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Can anyone tell me, how do we know if “He’s” the right one? I have dated a few and thought of them right for me but I always lose them in the process. Either, the time was not right, or the situation didn’t permit.

Any thoughts?

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This made my morning. It’s funny if you can relate. Long Distance Relationship really sucks. 🙂

See, that’s the thing about being in a relationship. You always think about the happiness of your partner. I saw this article and it reminded me of yesterday. Hun and I were just talking about this things. Looking back to when we started, it made me realize, we were good without each other. But now that we have each other, we are at our best together.

10 Definitive Ways to tell you are in love with the right someone

I love this relationship because it makes me a better person. – Gab to Ney