Posts Tagged ‘journal’


I am scared. I am scared that I will not be able to hold myself together. I am scared to take another step as it may push you away farther. I am scared that if time flies, it’ll be fast I won’t be able to catch you to where you’re headed. I am scared that if I move an inch from where you left me, you won’t find me.

I am sinking though I refused not to. I am drowning though I stepped out of the throbbing water.

I hope you can find you.

When you find you,

Come back to me.



I really want to know the rules of engagement. I want to know when I will be free from torment.

I am in between feelings of love and hate.

Part of me wants to go on and love him louder than his demons. Part of me wants to just accept that we’re done for good.

I remember a friend, he said:

Acceptance is better than fighting. If you keep putting up with a man who has no intentions on showing his love for you by being the first one to surrender in a fight, you’ll end up getting tired and soon, you will do what he’s doing. Gap will start to grow. Instead of you growing together, you grow apart. Let the man be. Let him go. When he find you in his alone time, he’ll pursue you.

That makes a lot of sense but can you blame a man for trying too hard?

Before I even start, the title is not original but it tells everything about this blog. There’s this one girl, a very sound girl. Or not. She fell in love with a man ten years elder than her. It was actually an epic love tale. It all started as what they call a whirlwind love affair. The first time they met is not special because they encountered through a friend. Perhaps the timing was wrong. Or they were simply not meant to be.

So i’ll start.

June, 2012

It embarked on with a pen and a tissue. The man was really aggressive but don’t get me amiss. He was a genuinely funny guy. Whenever he talks, I laugh. It was like the first in forever that I ever laughed even in a very feeble joke. He’s not even straining to be funny. I have never thought that day, my life would alter forever. I will not try to explain what happened. But if I can delineate it, clearly, he was the prince who swept me off my feet. It was absolutely magical.

But just like every love story, it came through ups and down until one day, the fairy tale is over. Considerably, it wasn’t even very real to begin with.

Just like that…


This made my morning. It’s funny if you can relate. Long Distance Relationship really sucks. 🙂

See, that’s the thing about being in a relationship. You always think about the happiness of your partner. I saw this article and it reminded me of yesterday. Hun and I were just talking about this things. Looking back to when we started, it made me realize, we were good without each other. But now that we have each other, we are at our best together.

10 Definitive Ways to tell you are in love with the right someone

I love this relationship because it makes me a better person. – Gab to Ney


You have an amazing eyes. They tell me I am beautiful
In any way
In any shape
In any form.

You have strong arms. They tell me I am safe
In any case
In any circumstance
In any day.

You have a soft heart. It tells me I am loved
In any possible way
In any unimaginable bad days
In any time,

The best and the worst of times.



You can read it from here.
9 Signs He’s the guy you should marry

This article made me so happy.
I was thinking about my man the whole time I was reading it.

One, He encourages girls’ night. When I tell him that I am going out with one of my girls, he wouldn’t disagree. He’ll say enjoy.

Two, He could pen your bio. Pillow talk is the best bonding ever. I always love catching up with my man. And I love that he has retentive memory even on small details.

Three, He accepts your social circle. That includes getting along with your girlfriends and not feeling threatened or uncomfortable by your male friends That says it all.

I feel lucky as I go along. What have I done to deserve this man? Moving on, He talks through conflict. He won’t stop until we’re through difficulties. He would be very persistent that we talk about it first before we can drop it so it won’t happen again. (At least he’s not insensitive.)

He’s up for a good chick flick every now and then. We don’t really go to movie theaters plus we’re in a long distance relationship. But it doesn’t stop us from doing things we both love…together. We have this time of day in a week when we watch a movie one suggests. He would make me watch a movie he like and I would ask him to watch a movie I like. Love and Other Drugs is one of the movies he would always talk about. He have watched it three times.

You feel like he’s The One. Yes. I feel like he is the one for me. But I do not believe in marriage. Maybe I can work on that. SOON we’ll find out.

To end this, I just thought I can share the article with you. 🙂


Gabriel to Ney: We held hands. And it was the first time someone left something that makes my heart smile every effin time I remember..


I have never known that it’s possible to shut people out of our lives in a heartbeat..

..until it happened to me.