Posts Tagged ‘relationship’

3:40AM

So I have been awake for 4 hours and I could not get myself to sleep. I am trying not to make amends anymore or maybe stopping from still hoping to rekindle the lost flame. But I always wake up to still feeling there is actually hope.

Should I be basing this on Facebook where he still has me at his “In a relationship with” status? Or him only seeing my messages but no response whatsoever? The fact that he is still reading my messages makes me think that he is still interested in what I have to say.

I am no longer sure of what’s coming ahead of us both. I am not sure eithrr if I can still fight for it. I only wanted him to stay and fight with me. I love him louder and stronger than his demons. I know I am not stopping until he can tell me he does not love me anymore.

Maybe in my next entry, I will write about a man’s pride and what it really does to a relationship.

My God, help me. I need to be strong for the both of us.

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7:30PM

I am scared. I am scared that I will not be able to hold myself together. I am scared to take another step as it may push you away farther. I am scared that if time flies, it’ll be fast I won’t be able to catch you to where you’re headed. I am scared that if I move an inch from where you left me, you won’t find me.

I am sinking though I refused not to. I am drowning though I stepped out of the throbbing water.

I hope you can find you.

When you find you,

Come back to me.

11:04PM.

When you decided to leave, it didn’t bother me anymore.

I am now being wise on choosing my battles and it is always best to stay calm and positive despite the challenges and stones being thrown at us.

We may not have the best love story, but ours is remarkable. Which is why it became my favorite.

8:52PM

I really want to know the rules of engagement. I want to know when I will be free from torment.

I am in between feelings of love and hate.

Part of me wants to go on and love him louder than his demons. Part of me wants to just accept that we’re done for good.

I remember a friend, he said:

Acceptance is better than fighting. If you keep putting up with a man who has no intentions on showing his love for you by being the first one to surrender in a fight, you’ll end up getting tired and soon, you will do what he’s doing. Gap will start to grow. Instead of you growing together, you grow apart. Let the man be. Let him go. When he find you in his alone time, he’ll pursue you.

That makes a lot of sense but can you blame a man for trying too hard?

There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.

Sarah DessenThe Truth About Forever

This was captured in Botolan when we had our first ocular visit for our outreach program.

This is my first entry after hybernating forever. Anyways, this has nothing to do with travel or food. This is quite different because I am blogging about the things we [gino&I] fight about a lot.

1. Indifference. So have you ever been in a relationship with someone who has the same character as yours? I bet, most of you would answer “No.” So do I. In a span of 16 months, Gino and I would fight over some petty things because of our indiferrences. There were times when we were just talking and someone said something that makes one pretty upset and there you go, one shows lack of interest and no effort in talking things through. Sad life. Days go by without us talking. 

I hope this goes straight to his heart and mind.

2. Facebook App. Who wouldn’t feel hurt when the partner has got a lot of time with this f**ing unbelievable app? So insulting and disgusting. Like what the hell am I even here for?

3. Bossy. I tend to act like a boss to my boyfriend and I don’t even intend to. Sometimes, it just comes naturally. I feel guilty as soon as I realize that I am becoming too much you know. I wish he would understand that.

4. Mood swings. I am a woman and I go through hell when I am getting my period. So hell I share with someone who would get in the way. Since I am with him most of the time, he gets too much attention from me. But it isn’t the attention every man would wish to receive from the love of their lives. So this must be the third reason that made ME the problem in our relationship and brace yourselves as we go along. Lol.

Heroes evolve is such a new happening in our relationship.

5. Gaming. Competition. Okey. Let me be clear. We are playing these games because we want to. But there are days I get so irritated because it feels like he is competing instead of just enjoying the game with me. So whenever I hear him trash talking or bragging, I just keep quiet and I fo AFK ( Away From Keyboard)

I can go on and on listing the things we fight about or the hate we feel whenever we fight but you know, in a strong and intimate relationship, there are times when it is really hard to deal with your partner. But what’s important is that you still want to be with each other. And that you still love one another. That at the end of the day, when all is said and done, you still see a bright future together.

I may not have it listed above but my idiosyncracies are what’s keeping us from living just a simple life. I don’t know and I can’t fight it during my PMS. I am just so lucky that the man I am in a relationship with is patient and kind.

Ow. By the way, I am blogging this because it is our 16th monthsary. I am expecting more petty fights in the future but I always trust and believe that the love we have for each other is more than the pride, or more than the hate we can feel towards each other.

Faith. Love. Hope. Future. Cheers!

See, that’s the thing about being in a relationship. You always think about the happiness of your partner. I saw this article and it reminded me of yesterday. Hun and I were just talking about this things. Looking back to when we started, it made me realize, we were good without each other. But now that we have each other, we are at our best together.

10 Definitive Ways to tell you are in love with the right someone

I love this relationship because it makes me a better person. – Gab to Ney

By the window,
We sit and talk

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You know that feeling when you found the one who made you say it. Or even think it.

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If you ever feel so lucky waking up knowing you have the best partner in the world. Come feel me.
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The topic of love is one of our favorite things in the world. This blog nailed it. This blog tells you why love and religion are two of the things that matter in this world.

So as for me. If I don’t know God. I know nothing of love. God must be the center of it all. Ciao.